Palingenesis

MAYBE it really is possible.

maybe i can do it on my own. maybe i can escape.

i haven't cut my skin open in six days. i have sort of relearned how to calm down. i want to get rid of the negativity in my life i was previously clinging on to.

it's so hard and it hurts so bad but maybe this is what i must do

the way i was living before was entirely unsustainable but i am just finally realizing that it might be up to me

i can see the hope of change on the horizon: small, distant, flickering, almost fleeting. but it is visible enough to follow no matter how far behind i feel